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i hope it was worth it.....
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I hope your happy with what you have done. I suppose you probably are more than i am. I mean, at least you gained something positive out of this, i hope he was worth it. You may have lost what you wanted more, but you still got him. YOu broke my heart, and that is something i wont forgive you for ever again. Even if you didnt do anything yet, it was going to happen, and regardless, you still lied to me. I wont let you do that again, we are through. Good luck finding anybody as good as i was to you. Best wishes to you two.
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WE NEED ONE MORE PERSON TO STAY IN A ROOM WITH US AT SUGOICON THIS YEAR!!! IF YOU WANT TO STAY IN OUR ROOM, LET ME KNOW !!!
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[13 Aug 2005|04:11am] |
Where have you been?
I've been waiting so long to hear from you.
And all the things that we said we would do
Remains to be plans of the past.
We've been, we've been too quiet for too long.
Where is, where is the hope we once had?
It's too late to be saved by your charm,
We'll never get this right.
Your words are cold, and the season is too,
The comfort in your voice is gone.
Don't keep in touch, I'm better off all alone
You've lost everything that I've loved.
So is it worth this time?
Am I done in your mind?
Will I regret once you're gone?
Why did I ever think that we would, we would be good?
We've been, we've been too quiet for too long.
Where is, where is the hope we once had?
It's too late to be saved by your charm,
We'll never get this right.
Well alright, I'm sorry I even tried.
I was a fool to have hope in you, in you.
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[12 Aug 2005|05:34am] |
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
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[11 Aug 2005|07:08pm] |
It's alright to tell me what you think about me
I won't try to argue or hold it against you
I know that you're leaving, you must have your reasons
The season is calling your pictures are falling down
The steps that I retraced the sad look on your face
The timing and structure, did you hear, he fucked her
A day late a buck short I'm writing the report
On losing and failing when I move I'm flailing now
And it's happened once again, I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands, sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone and I've been here for too long
To face this on my own, well I guess this is growing up
And maybe I'll see you at a movie, sneak preview
You show up and walk by on the arm of that guy
And I'll smile and you'll wave
We'll pretend it's okay
The charade, it won't last
When he's gone, I won't come back
And it'll happen once again, you'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands, sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone, and you've been there for too long,
To face this on your own, well I guess this is growing up
Well, I guess this is growing up
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[10 Aug 2005|04:40am] |
did it all get real, i guess it's real enough
they got refrigerators full of blood
another century spent pointing guns
at anything that moves
sometimes i worry that i've lost the plot
my twitching muscles tease my flippant thoughts
i never really dreamed of heaven much
until we put him in the ground
but it's all i'm doing now
listening for patterns in the sound
of an endless static sea
but once the satellite's deceased
it blows like garbage through the streets
of the night sky to infinity
but don't you weep (don't you weep for them)
there is nothing as lucky
don't you weep
there is nothing as lucky, as easy, and free
don't be a criminal in this police state
you better shop and eat and procreate
you got vacation days then you might escape
to a condo on the coast
i set my watch to the atomic clock
i watch the crowd count down 'til the bomb gets dropped
i always figured that there'd be time enough
i never let it get me down
but i can't help it now
looking for faces in the clouds
i got some friends i barely see
but we're all planning to meet
we'll lay in bags as dead as leaves
all together for eternity
but don't you weep
there is no one as lucky
honey, don't you weep
there is nothing as lucky, as easy, or free
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Hey, guys.
A lot has been going on recently. I'll start with what happened first. As far back as I can remember. Sugoicon. Of course, I didn't go. Stephen & Jeremy went. Nobody took pictures, So i haven't seen their Anbu costumes, I saw a few pics that whitnu took of Stephen as the monkey, and haku. and i want that haku picture. it was way hott. hah anyway. They had fun except for anbu joe dissing them for uglybitch. enough of sugoi.
3 year anniversary for stephen & myself. how awesome is that? he loves me so much its amazing. and whats even more awesome than that, I love him more than he loves me. We spent our 3 year anniversary together. we went to see the spongebob movie the night before that. It was the cutest thing ever. I got my patrick watch. I want the god damn plankton one. hey. this isn't my journal, get off of that tangent. Our 3 year anniversary was also the day of thanksgiving. Spending the night at granny's watching spiderman 2. How much more awesome could it get? none!
Katie came. Enough of that.
Stephen got the job at UPS. That's excellent. He works nights now, and sunday mornings at hv. supa dupa fly.
Yesterday we went to michael's party. It was super awesome. lots of awesome halo going on. Lots of fun times. We should definitely do that more often. I wish I had ten billion tv's. We could do it at my house.
Today, stephen is at work, and after he gets off, he's going to his aunt kathleen's & uncle wayne's to take family pictures. after he gets done with that, he's coming to my house to get me, and we're going to hang out for an extended period of time. it'll be lots of fun.
we were talking last night about how much of a bitch i was when we started going out. i was totally defensive over him. and you know, i still am, but not nearly as bad as i was. it's neat to have someone love you. and even with little bitches who try to get under your skin, and fuck you up, it works out. how awesome is that?
Happy 3 years, stephen. I love you. I wish you'd update your joural.
xomandah
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Stephen is gone to france & england. he'll update when he gets back.
--SamejiChan
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stephen hasn*t updated since waay before acen.
so i am going to update for him.
heh.
( entry )
( pictures )
( quiz )
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hey you guys..
this is amandah & i just wanted to let you know that me & stephen broke up... yeah. and i know you are all going to be asking why... so
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Stephen never updates anymore. So i shall update for him. Stephen is wonderful. He and I have been together for almost 2 years & 4 months. whoa. I love him with my whole heart. Annnnyway, enough of the mushy stuff.
We are both really excited about going to anime central, this year. My first con. ^_____^;; I don*t know what to say. heh.I am nervous/excited/all of that. I don*t know quite what to expect. He reserved his room and everything a few nights ago. :] I am excited. He is going to cosplay as Haku again, and Takkun. :D yay. I am going to be mamimi. yum.
he is doing homework right now. big college boy. i am so proud. he has a big test tomorrow. wish him luck.
not much has been going on with him. he got a job at hollywood video. and he is getting his license soon. :proud:
his house caught on fire this morning. stupid jeremy. hahah. no foreal. i love jeremy.<3
I am going to go. I hope I didn*t leave anything out. oh well if i did.
Love you, baby.<3333333333
--Amandah<333
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Happy Valentines Day
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You just left my house.
I love you.
I want nothing but to be with you forever.
I wish you knew that.
Why cant you believe me? :\
Oh, how I love you.
♥♥
heh.<3
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Life is back to normal. Me and my baby are back together and doing great. I love her!!
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